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How happy I am right now. So today I was really grouchy in the morning, my hair was frizzy and I really needed to touch it up with a straightner, AND my dad wanted me to run and do all his errands before Christmas rush hour. So here I am, in Don Quiote's trying to exchange his foot massager for a straightner and other last minute things we need, and I reallly gotta pee and my hair is all in my face. PLUS the line was SUPER LONG. -_- BTW I still had to pee, then I had to hold it all the way back into Ewa Beach, with TRAFFIC! Then I had to cash my check into my bank right before they closed and I had to go to the Post Office to check our mail. && what I found totally made my day and made me forget that I still had to pee. Through all the junk mail and some packages for me, I found a big envelope from NDNU (Notre Dame De Namur University) && I thought it was another reminder from them asking if I wanted to visit there campus and another campus booklet. BUT surely, it was something GREATER, I opened it up and read ----- MY FIRST COLLEGE ACCEPTANCE LETTER! I was soooo HAPPY, AMAZED, FLABBERGASTED, RELIEVED just EVERYTHING. && I would like to give thanks to the people who helped me, because without them this would DEFINITELY not have been possible. +My family for instilling the importance of a college education in my head. +Eleyne Fia for pushing me to do the Common App and meet the deadline. and write my counselor recommendation, and seeing me on her really busy days. +Ann Tanaka for writing my recommendation and pushing me to get that hard working A/B for her class. + Mrs.Everette for squeezing me in to see Mrs.Fia all those days. + MYSELF, for writing that damn good essay & Resume for the Common App. + && you, best friend, for letting me realize, back then when I didnt care about going to college or even thought about it, that it was a good option for me and that I should give it a try. Thank you, for that I will never forget how someone other than family actually believed in me.

SENIORITIS kickin' in?!

So I am officially in a hole. In order for me to apply to Manoa trough C.O.P., I need to have my grandpa's federal tax return form. But he didn't get it from the tax guy yet cuz he did his taxes really late and he doubts that he will get the form in time for the priority deadline. So I don't think they will accept my application :( this fricken sucks because I don't want to go to HPU! So exspensive and that means I have to stay on the Spirit Clubf or all 4 years since it's mucho exspensive -_- plus they don't have my major. AND most importantly, I do want to go to a mainland school but definetly want a back up school here at home just in case. GRRRR. And not to mention I still have to do the paragraph question for Tanaka and the chapter write up in the booklet for chapters 1-3. -_- so gayyyy. Why must I procrastinate?! Well I got Cullen to cover my shift tomorrow so I have time to finish up my Common Application to print out and turn in to Fia by Wednesday, and submit it. Also all the other crap I need to turn in to her and the Recommendation forms I need to remind Tanaka about since the due date is Sunday, which means I need to have it post marked by Friday but since there is no school I need it by Wednesday! AHHHH! So retarded! Anyways, I really think Senioritis is kicking in, NO DOUBT. I feel it already. Actually I've been feeling it for awhile now. Haha. Well anyways, this year is going by too damn fast for me to finish any of my senior shit with out rushing and cramming it. GRRR.
Well on to a brighter note, I got to spend the whole weekend ( except for sunday) with my Smooth Groove boys Antonio and Jumar, and on Saturday I got to spend it with the whole band at their Keehi Lagoon Performance. I must admit me and Caitlin are officially, the Smooth Groove Chicks :) Lol well tomorrow, I need to pay for my winterball bid. FUCKKKKK. Ok goodnight, still need to finish up Tanaka's worrrkkkk, night :)

So I guess this is it--

So I guess this is it, here's to all those fun nights with the girls, the crazy weekends we've shared together, the autograph signings in our yearbooks, those smooth drives, our first days of school, picture taking, football games at those Friday Night Lights, and here's to our last fourth year of High School. No more living in that "High-Schooly" era. In a few months we'll be fitting on our caps and zipping up our gowns, getting ready to walk the lawn of the Aloha Stadium in front of all our families and loved ones who watched us grow and stand to see where we are today and what we have accomplished. So I guess this is it, time to grab our diplomas instead of our lunch, time to get accepted to college instead of a club, time to pack up your things and get ready to dorm instead of packing up your things and sleepover at a friends house. Instead of HSA testing it'll be filled with mid-terms and exams. Are you ready for all that to happen so fast? Have you ever really stopped to wonder and take it all in that YOURE OFFICIALLY A SENIOR? Rather than just using it as a 'term'? It is already November, and we're almost to the halfway mark of our senior year. November is actually almost over, December will come and go because of Christmas break. Then it will hit all of us, the year 2009. Our graduation year. Then we'll only have barely six months to cherish our VERY LAST MONTHS in high school. OMG. SO FAST. I was talking to my previous teachers lately whom I've had when I was a sophomore, and it made me think wow, was it really THAT long ago I was sitting in their classroom? It felt like just a few months ago. I just want senior year to go by SUPER SLOW, im not ready to graduate. Emotionally, I still WANT to be in high school. I still want to go to school a few blocks down from my house. I still want to see those teachers I've had. Most importantly I don't want to see everyone go their separate ways. I don't want to have to start ALL OVER at a new school :( Im going to miss high school and it's PERKS people would say. I mean come on, won't you?

My last two days so far,

Ok so I don't get what is the purpose for getting your wisdom teeth out, I mean I know it's because your mouth isn't designed for those extra 4 teeth but still. THIS PAIN SUCKS! && On top of that I had Cheerleading practice yesterday and today. URGH, it was even more sore. Oh well, today the pain eased, and I didn't even take my medicine :) that shit makes me throw up anyway. Hmm, I OFFICIALLY have a LISP thanks to all my wisdoms being gone, and my cheeks are a little swollen so I have a lisp, JUST TEMPORARILY THO! haha but I think I sound cute :) All-Star practice went pretty good today, even though we were all tired as hell, Im happy that were practicing the entire rountine all the way through, Im getting used to breathing again during the whole thing, haha. Man thats a work out, first it's the baskets, then standing tumbling, then running tumbling, then stunt sequence, motions, jump sequence, the beautiful pyramid, the sickening visual, then finally, the awesome dance that wears me out, haha. All in like what, 2-3 minutes? damn. Well yesterday I didn't go to school due to my surgery that was super fast, I swear getting your top wisdoms is sooo fast and WAYY less painful then getting your bottoms extracted. So if you ever have to get them out, look forward to getting out your tops :) trust me. It's wayyy better. Well now i get to look forward to loosing weight, since all im eating is yogurt, saimin, and occassional jamba juice :) thats the upside of teeth extractions. hmmm, what else, so it turns out our uniforms won't be here in time for the performance so Katie's mom got us blue soffe shorts and a white wife beater that were getting embroidered. I want our shorts to say Na Mano (our mascot) on the butts part. Anyways, Im SOOO excited, our first performance as a team and to show everyone what this new allstars is all about :) SO come and watch if you want, October 25th, at Mililani HS. We're going on as an exibition team for the High School Preseason Comp so were towards the end. Hmm well thats all for today, until next time, :)

SIDE TRACKED?

Ok so like I don't get why I do certain things sometimes. It's like I'm not thinking or I'm doing it because I think I like it but I really don't. It seems like the things that don't matter to me is what I'm doing and the things that actually do matter to me I'm bailing out on it. For a perfect example, BOYS, they really aren't important since a real woman needs a man ;) haha JK! but for example I find myself being boy crazy & checking guys out more than usual lately! haha, I haven't really done that in awhile because Im SUPER busy and hello it's campbell, (not my first pick of the litter if you know what I mean.) && there comes Cheerleading, my life, passion and basically everything I do is for cheer but it seems that has become my latest disaster! I feel like I want soo many goals && have set for myself in cheer but aren't able to accomplish. I push myself to the edge for it and it just slowly gets better, WHY?! Why must my tumbling come so slow? It's making me dispise that part of cheer, but yet I still wanna do it? IDK it just feels like im getting side-trackedd about it and maybe loosing FOCUS on whats important right now.

Do you think I'm really that much of a fool?

OMG! WEIRD ASS HORNY BOYS!
Leave me alone please! I mean come on, I'm not going to do anything sexual with you, so stop adding me on myspace tryna hit! In the words of my closest friends, NIGGA PLEASE! I'm actually harder to get then that, SO STOP TRYING! Save your time and breath and hit up someone who gives it up, not someone who cares about her dignity and her virginity! It really makes you look pathetic, and despite what my past is like or what you think of me, I'm actually not interested in that. I'm a Senior bitches, time to settle down, not fool around!

Hey, can't say I didn't warn ya'. So DON'T say I'm A TEASE! && in-experienced boys, or guys I just met, PLEASE don't MISTAKE my so called "Flirting" for a sign that I LIKE YOU or wanna take things further, seriously, that is JUST HOW MY PERSONALITY IS! Trust me, if I ever flirt with someone I JUST MET, you must be special! But other than that, I'm just being myself, don't take it TOO serious, I'm a straight up girl, hell if this chick likes you, she'll let you know & if she don't, she'll let you know!